November 28, 2008

WIth a Red Velvet Cover

I am jumbled with emotion
A weeping love letter
Words are desperately put on me
I was a sacrificed tree
I've been flattened and colored
Deep secrets hide inside me
I'm a concealed possession,
An old woman's soul
With a red velvet cover
My body is torn and withered
From a struggled life that's been lived
I am an untold biography
Its chapters never revealed
I am the truth
With bruises blue and black
I am evidence of an agonizing life
I'm her forever broken heart
My pages are cracked
I'm her sorrow and tears
Smeared words that can't be read
Tucked away under a mattress
Only one knows where I am
All locked up
And only she holds key




*wrote this for my creative writing class senior year

November 23, 2008

You Are Both To Blame

How did we lose this time?
Another runaway.
Another tear.
Another love lost.

You are both to blame.

It's not just you you're hurting.
More than your hearts are breaking.
The thought never crossed your minds.
Again we are forgotten.

How are you giving up?
Another vow undone.
Another leave.
Another good-bye.

You are both to blame.

October 18, 2008

Cover Your Ears

I have never packed lighter
A backpack of essentials
I left the rest behind
but I could not leave my mind
or the thoughts it contains

Words are swishing in my mouth
I want to let them out
Tears will fall as I shout
Cover your ears
I do not want you to hear

There is no need to explain
Do not ask questions
My answers are unsure
and my emotions obscure
with unexpected circumstance

October 13, 2008

Fix Me

Your power is perfect in my weakness
so I'll stand firm in who I am
and let you fix my brokenness.
A peace so overtaking
as I let go of what was always yours
you breathe a new life in me.

I Need Yours

Why is my heart so easily broken?
I don't want to care
but every part of me has turned on that switch
and I can't seem to hit it off.
I can't let go.
I want to give it all to You
but something is holding me back.
I'm inches from your grasp
but where is my strength?
I need Yours.

October 8, 2008

Gray

Through spaces between trees
of the forest in my mind,
a light that once shone,
I cannot seem to find.

Colors are not as vibrant here.
Leaves are washed with gray,
falling to the surface
as baring branches sway.

April 10, 2008

Reliance

You challenge me.

When I hold back,
you open me up.
When I pull away,
you draw me near.

I am out of control, but you have it all figured out.

As the tears fall,
I feel you with me,
and I listen.

I can hear your voice.

As I breathe
my heart lifts up.
I feel you with me.
and I just listen.

I rest in you.
I rest in your praises.
They are more than I am.
My only reliance.

March 31, 2008

Astounded

I am astounded
by your lack of better judgment.
Did you honestly expect
I'd be blind to
your selfish intent?
I may cry
but my tears reflect your lies
so I can see the truth.
I may die
but only the part of me
that's wrapped around you.

March 30, 2008

Everlasting Sound

I let the drums
beat in my heart
with Your everlasting sound.
I carry it with me
as I walk through
rocky ground.

Your word is my sword.
My faith is the shield
against all who try
to break me
and take me from Your field.

Where your love is
the wildflowers
vibrant and growing
brushing my legs
as I run free
into Your showing
of what I am
and what I will become.

For You know the plans
You have for me
plans to prosper me
and not to harm me
plans to give me hope
and a future.

I'll keep Your word as my sword
and when summer dies
and wildflowers are gone
I'll find Your love
in acorns.

Strong and growing
like my shield of faith
faith in knowing
what You are
and what You will always be
the only one who could ever
look inside of me.

My maker
the footprints I follow
when the world
turns cold with snow
but I am not afraid
as I walk the road.

For I know I'll see Your face
as my soul awakes
into eternity
like tulips in the spring
when first kissed with the sun.

Until then I'll live
by faith and word

They're continually spun.
Spun like seasons
You always come.

March 26, 2008

Ashes

Time spent
trying to live
instead of actually living.

I can't get it back.
Another day is rising
but I can't see the fire.

I walk up the hill
for a closer look
only to find ashes.

March 24, 2008

Open

Open my ears
I can't hear you clearly
I don't know how to listen

Open my eyes
I can't see you anywhere
I don't know which path to follow

Open my heart
I can't feel you anymore
I don't know how to love

I want to change
I thought I was trying
Is my effort not enough?

I want to live
But my life is dying
Is it supposed to be this tough?

February 8, 2008

Shining Brighter/Lift Me Higher

You breathe life into this place.
You send sound
grabbing attention
for all who want to listen.
You never give up on those
who can't seem to hear.

I was there.

Now my heart is open.
All Your praises wash my cares.
When I lose Your light
You shine brighter.
You lift me higher.

Too bright to see darkness.
Too high to look down.
Your love is freedom.
I can't be bound.

When I walk with You,
I can't be stopped.

When I run with You,
I can't look away.

When You wrap me
in Your arms
and dance with me,
You never let go.

January 12, 2008

Sunday

My heart is pounding
with your love.
I feel you in me,
but you are more than a feeling.
You are more than words.
You are more than the world
you gave me,
and you are more than a look.
You are more than the flesh.
You are more than any life
you gave me.
My mind is swirling
with your voice.
I hear you in me,
but you are more than a sound.
You are more than my cares.
You are more than my worries.
You are more.
You are more.
You gave me.
You gave me love.